Roberta Grimes

Why?

Posted by Roberta Grimes • March 07, 2026 • 3 Comments
Jesus, The Teachings of Jesus, Understanding Reality

The Cruel War is raging, Johnny has to fight.
I want to be with him from morning to night.
I want to be with him, it grieves my heart so,
Won’t you let me go with you?
No, my love, no.

Tomorrow is Sunday, Monday is the day
That your Captain will call you and you must obey.
Your captain will call you, it grieves my heart so,
Won’t you let me go with you?
No, my love, no.

I’ll tie back my hair, men’s clothing I’ll put on,
I’ll pass as your comrade, as we march along.
I’ll pass as your comrade, no one will ever know.
Won’t you let me go with you?
No, my love, no.
(Traditional, ca 1776-1783) from “The Cruel War” (first recorded by Land Norris, 1926)

By now, most people understand that we come to earth in an effort to learn and grow spiritually, so we can raise our personal spiritual vibration. Our earth-lives are full of lessons as stumbling-blocks, burdens and concerns of every description that seem to be random, although in truth the most significant issues, shocks, and calamities are planned into our earth-lives by none other than ourselves. And we plan these spiritual learning opportunities so eagerly! Very often, believe it or not, our dear spirit guides have to talk us into walking back some of the very worst of our self-planned, earth-life disasters. Which is funny, as we think of it now; but from the viewpoint of our eternal lives, so gentle and beautiful and full of love as they are, and entirely devoid of fear, our lives on earth do contain relatively quite a lot of pain. So, if we are going to come to earth at all, then of course we are going to plan the roughest possible earth-lives for ourselves, so we can learn the most that we can from every swing that we take at having earthly adventures, and we can happily outgrow our need for what Craig Hogan calls “earth-school”, just as soon as we can!

There was a time, very long-ago – before Jesus ever was born on earth – when we would have thought about these things very differently. We would have entered each of our many earth-lives blindly, just as random, catch-as-catch-can, kind of life sucks, then you die, entirely separate experiences, always living brutish and brief lives, and without our ever understanding why we even need to come to earth at all. Just imagine what that period of our history must have felt like to live!

Yes, perhaps we did have some spiritual guidance from the Old Testament scrolls, if we had the great good fortune to have been born as religiously observant Jews. There were other very early religious ideas as well, however, and most of them were awful! There was Moloch, for example, a big and nasty Canaanite deity who demanded that we sacrifice our first-born children into his fiery belly. Not much spiritual growth to be gained from him! And Thomas, my very dear spirit guide, soon after he first came out to me in the spring of 2015, also told me the story of his youngest earth-brother in the final earth-lifetime that the two of them ever shared. They were princes, and it was what Thomas reckoned to me had been about six thousand years ago. Thomas, the oldest of many brothers, was in his latter twenties when they died, and by then he was their walled city’s great general; while the brother who would eventually become Jesus, the last-born in that lifetime, had been so abounding in love that whenever their army had marched out to war, that youngest brother, barely into his teens, had secretly followed their city’s army, and had tried to save whatever victims of the fighting that he could. It was generally new widows that he could find, hiding in terror with their children following those wars; and that youngest brother would ferret out what widows he could find, and coax them back to his city, and there he would find them new husbands to take them as second wives.

Not sure if I have his story straight, but my Thomas has told me that his and Jesus’s last earth-lives prior to Jesus’s birth were perhaps four thousand years earlier. It was in a time of great wars, and soon a stronger army overwhelmed and vanquished theirs, and all the princely brothers and their whole family were slain. Only the peasants were spared. At first, Thomas couldn’t find his youngest brother in the afterlife world, but it turned out that all that youngest brother’s goodness and kindness and love for others had made of him an early perfected Being. That youngest brother had achieved what we now call the Seventh Level, or the Godhead Level. So, He could go down to the Sixth Level and lower to meet with Thomas and their other brothers. But those older brothers could not go high enough to achieve the youngest brother’s new exalted level.

Thomas told me then that once his youngest brother, the newly-perfected one who eventually became Jesus, realized that there had been this contest going on that no one had known about, so he alone had won it – and it was still going on! – He had become very upset. He thought it was morally wrong to be holding important contests that people neither knew about nor understood! So that was when Thomas’s very loving youngest brother had refused to join the Godhead collective. He then had asked Thomas please to wait here with Him. And He began to petition the Godhead to allow Him and His oldest brother to be born on earth as teachers of the fact that this contest was happening, and what the rules were, and how everyone could win it!

There is no time in the eternal reality where they were then. But Thomas and I came to calculate that it must have taken Thomas’s youngest brother as much as four thousand years to persuade the Godhead to allow Him, Jesus, to be born on earth again from out of the Godhead, when He personally had nothing further to learn. So it really took Jesus some artful persuading! And Jesus had to make the Godhead some hefty promises. He had invisible Archangels for His protection; and they were under His command; but He had to promise to accept their protection. He was supposed to simply slip away and disappear when His work here was done, and He didn’t after all follow that plan. A number of things he did differently. And very much later, quite recently, Thomas invited me one night to talk with Jesus about the ways in which Jesus went off His own script, and why He chose to do that.

Jesus’s personal home in the afterlife is on Level Three, which is where nearly everyone first goes home. There he lives on a riverbank where there are beautiful, sparkling fish of all sizes to feed, beside a field full of tame deer, backed by a forest. All of the colors there are rich and unexpected, many of them colors never seen on earth. And it’s funny, really, when Jesus vibrates so high at this point that He has to consciously lower His vibration or no one can get near Him; He vibrates even higher than the Godhead now, just one very high, pure note. And yet He chooses to spend nearly all His eternity on lowly Level Three, which everyone can comfortably reach. He wants to be where everyone can visit Him who wants to visit Him, when we first arrive home again from yet another lifetime on earth.

And Thomas, my personal spirit guide and Jesus’s eternal brother, plays a unique role in Jesus’s life, to this day. I didn’t realize that for a long time; and then, only recently I began to relax enough to more fully understand what I have been seeing. The role of primary spirit guide is a very close one, encompassing teacher and spiritual and personal guide; and my primary spirit guide is not supposed to leave me at all, during my earth-lifetime. And yet, I realize now, my Thomas also is Jesus’s very close friend, through ages of time; and from even before Jesus ever first became an ascended Being. They are close eternal brothers, in the literal sense. So, how has Thomas solved this problem of needing to always be with me during this earth-lifetime, and needing to be with Jesus so much as well? I realize now that, since I was an infant, Thomas has always taken me with him when he spent time with Jesus as my body was sleeping, but he simply has given me amnesia for all these events.         

Which at last explains to me so much! I have many small bits of what feel like memories, more solid than dreams, and with all these odd details of the astral plane, the many off-colors and the lack of sunlight, but still the feel of daylight; and the sweet scents and the beautiful intense love-feelings. And my astral body always feels so young and light! When you have been in the astral very much during this brief earth-lifetime, you never forget how it feels. I would have wondered about so many things, but eventually I just asked my dear Thomas, outright, and he answered my questions honestly. He never lies to me. He told me when I asked him that, yes, with his Brother’s permission, he does bring me pretty often to visit with Jesus in the astral plane while my physical body sleeps; he just erases my memories of these events. No harm done. And so now I understand so much more! And especially about why I have all these memories of talking with Jesus. There is not space enough to tell you here. But hold onto your hat, my dear one, and be sure to join us next week!

 Oh Johnny, oh Johnny, I fear you are unkind!
I love you far better than all of mankind.
I love you far better than words can e’re express!
Won’t you let me go with you?
Yes, my love, yes.

 Yes! My Love, Yes!
– (Traditional, ca 1776-1283) from “The Cruel War” (first recorded by Land Norris, 1926)

 

 

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